that's my mama

it doesn't matter where i post this that's not important the important thing is to get in write. write it up. write it down. write around. i got a little girl named daw she is little little little she is four feet eight inches tall and she weighs eighty-seven pounds. she's a hot little mama she's a little scorpio she comes to see me we lie in swirling clouds of dreams. i screwed that sentence up but there is no going back there is only forward there is building there is new. there is the new reality different from the one we would have created every moment is free will every thing is predestined. she's a hot little mama she's a little scorpio. my dick is as big as she is but somehow it all gets in. when i hold her i fuck her and hold her her entire ass fits in my hands both hands my fingers touch and my thumbs wrap around her front. she it tiny. somehow my dick goes all the way in. she comes and she comes she comes. i fuck her from behind and i am not kidding her body is seven dick-widths wide. imagine seven dick-widths. seven lanes. you know how they draw the face it's five eyes wide? they draw vertical lines demarcating delineating the widths. do that with her ass. back. legs. my dick is in the middle. three widths on either side.

her back has these tiny black hairs she's a little scorpio with tiny black hairs on her exoskeleton. i caress them with my lips i brush the tips the hairs my lips i maintain contact with the electromagnetic field and brush the tips. her little teeth an overbite the skin stretched tight the little tiny corners of her mouth. she smiles she sets the room alight. she sets. the room. alight. she flies away.

i'm in love with a 42-year-old woman named hiltrudes. she's from the phillipines. i'm in love with all women. the one i'm thinking about now is from the phillipines. she has three kids, all boys. they are in college. she works as an english teacher to support them. she works in lao. vientiane. that's where we met. we kissed by the mekong river. actually we met in the train on the way to vientiane. she was on her way to her new job.

we met as the train pulled in to nong khai, the end of the line. we shared a cab (actually a tuk-tuk) to the border. it should have taken five minutes but her friend was there to meet her and she had errands to run. we went all over the place. we got to know each other.

i went by two days later our guest house was across the street from her school. we walked along the river and talked. we ate indian food. we walked some more. we kissed. we went back to my place. we fucked.

i'd never fucked an older woman before. she had such knowledge, experience. she knew what she was doing. she knew what she wanted. she was confident, unselfconscious. she pressed herself against me.

i liked her cunt, it tasted like stilton. it tasted like wine. burgundy. white. she stopped me. "i want to come with you inside me." i stuck my dick in. slid it in, like a dagger. he lips puckered up her legs spread wide she pressed against me her muscles moved in undulations pressed against my skin we moved as one.

she came we fucked she came we fucked she came i never came. i don't know why. sometimes it happens that way. i was gonna see her the next day. i didn't. i chased after this cunt named one. wan. douang. she calls herself one but her name is douang. when she says "one" it sounds more like "wan".

i went and fucked jeab today jeab is great she gives me a massage she massages me all over i feel great so relaxed i feel great.

i came home i checked my mail i got mail from hiltrudes. she's sad. she misses me. i miss her too. i tell her i'm no good i sleep with lots of women i don't have the power to commit to one. honesty is the policy. the best?

she came to visit. she stayed a week. she left sunday.

here's how it works at the bathhouse: you go in and they got rows of hot bitches sitting in a room behind glass. they can usually see you kind of. they have numbers. you pick one out. you pay 2,000 bath (thai currency, prounounced bot). she takes you to a room. you buy drinks. tip the drink girl 20 bath. the drinks cost 30--40 each. then you get a bath. it's nice. then you get a fuck.

you can just go along with the program and get a bath and a fuck the usual way but if at any point you have desire you should act on it. 2,000 bath is a lot of money. it's 50 bucks to us, but it's a lot of money in thailand. you are the king. there already is a king, but you are a sub-king. it's not polite to make fun of the king.

it's not polite to make fun of the king in thailand. but the point is, do what you want. you'll get used to it after you fuck enough.

the bathhouses that most tourists go to are much more expensive, but apparently the bitches are super-hot. i should go one of these days, to check it out. there's this super-hot bitch i fucked at valentines her name is oo she's super-hot but she's a total cunt. she only gave me 45 minutes. i'm supposed to get two hours. i'll probly fuck her again, though, cause she's so hot. i mean, it's way better to have an emotional connection, a nice time, a good fuck. but this bitch is hot. and she *is* good at her job. making you come. she can suck, and she can fuck. next time i'll make her the second or third of the day so i can get my full two hours.

today, as most days, we were walking down to chaophya. the upsetter had some advice. "if you wanna see a whore on new years, book in advance!" people are lonely, you see. there's a lot of demand. of course you can always pick up a street whore.

chaophya is the bathhouse. one of two. the other is valentines. conveniently, they are next to each other. valentines is patronized by the rich and famous. and two dirty white guys. makes sense; we need a bath.

seriously, when we go to valentines we are recognized by polititians, actors, and landowners. that's some funny shit.

i've been working my way through the roster at valentines. they got some hot hot bitches. chaophya has more of a personal touch. the mama there makes fun of us, and gets mad when we don't come in for a while. i've only taken two girls there, both of whom i got really attached to. hell, i get attached to all of them. almost all of them. but these girls, yeah. jeab, and aoi. they both called me on the same day the other day. minutes apart. but i had a bitch here. so i couldn't see either of them. jeab is very nurturing. it's nice to be taken care of. aoi i wanna make my girlfriend. she's interested in language and communication. she likes movies. she's hot as shit. soft, brown body. dark brown. tight little tits. gentle, sensitive. thin and awkward. i gotta see her. today, hopefully. i wanna take her to a movie.

so we get there, chaophya, and they only got three girls. it's new year's day. they're all on holiday i guess. oh well. chat with the mama a minute off we go. valentines. also three girls. this blows. they try to push a couple on us i'd be ambivalent if i wasn't apathetic. off we go. i think i woulda fucked number 81 if the guy hadn't been so pushy. the proprieter is always touching us and prodding us and trying to manipulate us. manipulate. hands.

so we walk down the street and decide to go back to the place we passed on the way that has the girls that we talked to before. girls that pretend they're not whores. they hang out at this restaurant. we eat with them and have a few drinks the blaster goes home i end up at a disco. it was fun this girl is hot her name is jan and her skin is softly springy. she's got a little body seductive face lazy eyes tiny mole on her cheek and teeth that stick out of her mouth. i wanna fuck her but i don't know if i have the time.